Personal Log - Bio - Ens Liona - "The Aching the Longing The Needing"

Posted on 241708.10 @ 10:04pm by Lieutenant Maria Lionza
Edited on on 241708.11 @ 6:52pm

Mission: Reconstruction and Refocus
Location: Quarters

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Once back in her quarters Maria let out a long sigh it wasn't a very stressful day just busy between her physical and getting caught up on the projects within the her division of the science department. Her head and body was on the brink of just giving up seeing how long she has gone without an injection. Closing her eyes as she laid her head against the door and took several deep breaths, "....come on just a little bit longer." She muttered as she opened her eyes up again and pushed herself off the door.

Making it to her bedroom she opened up the footlocker that had a false side and pulled out one of the thin silver boxes and dropped it on the bed. Her hands shaking making it difficult to open the box, "damn't damn't damn't!" She shouted as it took three times to get the clasp open. "Breathe breathe breathe...." Maria muttered closing her eyes and taking a second to breathe before she even attempted to place the phial into the hypospray.

Her hand was shaking when she pressed the hypospray against her neck and she heard the usual hiss as the injection happened. Dropping the hypospray and allowing her head drop as her eyes closed as she allowed the drug to work its way through her body activating neurons and other things in her brain.

Slowly opening her eyes one of her elongated fingers came up and brushed a few tears that had formed as the drug was taking place. It wasn't the first time this had happened. Combination of fear of being found out as well as shame.

"Damn't....you are better than this." She muttered to herself as she looked at the paraphernalia on the bed. Picking up the hypospray she pulled out the phial that still had a half hit left. "Forgive me....." She added as her right hand gently touched the tattoo on her chest. Setting both the phial and hypospray back into the silver box which went back into its hiding spot.

As she tuned she felt the drug starting to effect her her hand reaching out and resting it on the lid of the footlocker. Her heart rate, pulse and even breathing felt faster faster than usual. "Varg Vargas you y dam damn fool....." Maria said clutching her chest as it felt like her heart was gonna explode.

Her knees hit the ground as she tried to get her breathing under control which would help get her heart rate down. Closing her eyes as she repeated a simple mantra over and over again. After a few minuets her breathing slowed as she also felt her heart rate slow as well. Opening her eyes her body still humming from whatever the hell that was if it was a reaction it was the first most likely Vargas put something in it.

Standing slowly her body still shaking but a different shaking moving slowly to the bathroom where she grabbed the glass and filled it with water and slowly sipping it. Setting the glass down she splashed some water on her face as something occurred to her the drinks she had. "Damn't......" She muttered still catching her breath and working on getting it under control.

Walking back out into the bedroom picking up her satchel and setting it on one of her footlockers before opening another. Grabbing a fresh pair of panties and a grey drape tank. Sitting down on the bed she removed her boots, top and bra and slipped the tank on before removing her pants along with panties and slipped on the new pair black lace boy shorts. Tossing her uniform into the corner before removing her hand terminal out of her satchel and slipped into bed.

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Ensign Maria Lionza
Biologist
USS Enterprise